The Afternoon Tea Party

Back for Good

2011-11-28T21:24:00.005+07:00

I'm back on writing stuff. After 16 torturing yet fun weeks on college, and now here I am.

Back in my own bedroom at my hometown with different atmosphere, good food & good stories from old friends.

Glad that everything's changed better than I expected.

And I'm back here for good. Everything's fine, except my body.

I physically tired, but mentally in some passions for projects & I'm getting excited for it.

I promise my body to get a lot of rest by going to bed before 11PM & a lot of naps. But it seems possible, but I have to.

Anyway, here, I wanna share something what I've got when I went overseas.

Many things happened, many things passed by.

Some good, some not. Loves and hates are everywhere.

I know I've suffered many hard decisions in this battle field.

I don't really think a lot lately, but once I think, it seems like a viruses, spread fast in my brain.

Gives me shivers and some tears. I know I'm just a human.

I'm not making an excuse, but every single of us has our own weakness point.

I know when we're down, we have to get up.

They once said, we can't laugh at the same jokes over and over again.

The same goes to problems, doesn't it? :)

Experience makes me write this.

For you to think.

For you to know.

For you to realize.

These are the 10 new things in life I've learned so far:

1. You can't change someone's past, but you can change the way they think about it.

2. Problems are meant to be not for breaking you down, but it's because you're able to deal with it and to make a stronger you. Just like a video game. At the first level, you'll find the game is too easy. But it's getting harder and harder each time you're going to the next level. But remember, each level will give you a better weapons to prepare & help you trough your problems.

3. People can be so mean, even the one that doesn't know you. But don't worry, read back on number 2, just change the word "Problem" into "These people".

4. Lovers keep me going, haters keep me growing.

5. Your happiness doesn't depend on others, but it depends on yourself. The way you think is affecting you the most.

6. When your time is limited, that's when you appreciate it the most.

7. (Most of) Good things happen when you don't expect it.

8. How to forgive people even though they've talked nasty about you.

9. How to survive when everyone seems like against you.

10. Last but not least, how to be a blessing for someone's life.

I won't say that I'm the most positive minded people you've ever seen or met,

but I just wanna make the best of everything in my life.

I'm still learning and I'm still trying.

Never stop doing good things in life, especially for others who need your helping hands.

When no one sees, remember who's looking up there.

The Creator of your life is counting for every single thing you do.

Overall, I think you have to experience yourself.

Because experience makes the best teacher for your life.

And the most important thing,

Don't forget to pray!

It sounds cheesy, but my experience says that "Pray changes everything."

Through experiences & prays, it's making who I am now.

Loneliness

2011-06-30T23:09:00.004+07:00

Recently,

I learn about what loneliness is.

Been far away from the people you love for a moment.

All you can do is just missing 'em,

Hugging the bolster & thinking about the times you had with

And hoping they'll do the same like you do.

Doing that thing & nothing's change.

You can't meet them, you can't reach them.

No, nothing. Nothing you can do.

When words "Missing you" isn't enough to describe how much you need them.

Don't know whether they're too cool with it or you're just a sensitive one.

All you want to do is come up to meet them & spend time together.

Just you and them.

When you're separated each other,

sometimes you're wondering & worried about something.

Wondering what they're thinking about.

Worried what will they do when you're not with them.

It's so humanity.

And it's killing.

I don't know if they feel the same.

But, I'm starting to ignore this feeling,

to avoid the pain that's killing you slowly but sure.

When you're falling too hard, it's hard to rise again,

when no one cares about how you feel at this very moment.

When you care, everyone's not paying attention for it.

When you away, everyone's craving for you.

That's not fair. I know.

I've been through it.

Guess you too.

This a bit of my current condition.

It's bothering me sometimes,

but not too much.

And this what I want to share with you.

NB : Congratulations for my boyfriend Alexander Averil who's in for CROWBAR AWARDS FINAL 2011! I'm so proud for you! This is one of your biggest achievement. Praise Lord! His plan is always good for you, boy. Wish that I can hug you at this very moment & tell how happy I am for it. I've been praying for you, a lot. But, yap, guess my support in pray is more than enough for you, isn't it? :)

I love you.

Just So you Know

2011-06-09T23:13:00.005+07:00

I don’t need you to take me to extravagant restaurants,

or spend your money on bouquets of roses to prove me you care about me, no.

I just need your accompany, just hold my hands or give your warm hugs.

Tell me that we are great to be together.

We could be in a house, watching random films, wearing pajamas & eating home cooked dishes.

Being ourselves in front of each other.

Coffee, Sir?

2011-06-05T21:00:00.004+07:00

I think that possibly

Maybe I'm falling for you
Yes There's a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you

I've seen the paths that your eyes wander down
I want to come too

I think that possibly
Maybe I'm falling for you

No one understands me quite like you do
Through all of the shadowy corners of me

I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop I love so much
All of the while I never knew

I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop I love so much
All of the while I never knew

I think that possibly
Maybe I'm falling for you
Yes there's a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you

I've seen the waters that make your eyes shine
Now I'm shining too

Because
Oh
Because I've fallen quite hard over you

If I didn't know you I'd rather not know
If I couldn't have you I'd rather be alone

I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop I love so much
All of the while I never knew

I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop I love so much
All of the while I never knew

All of the while
All of the while
All of the while it was you, you!

(Falling In Love At A Coffee Shop-Landon Pigg)

All I remember is about those day when we're drinking cup of coffee & can't sleep all night long.

You seem enjoy & get comfortable with me,

You told those stories,

like you've been knowing me since long time ago,

you told me so many things that

made me realize,
we have 'that' connection.

And from that day, I start to fall for you.
Until today..

I can't help my self to not to cry.

June 1st

2011-06-01T23:45:00.003+07:00

It's hard when you know you hold on something that hurts you most,

but yet, you still want to fight for it.

It's hard, when you know that you only can fight the war by yourself.

Broken down,

No one can help,

No one can understand how it feels,

Except you.

You are your own hero.

But,

just because you have one reason to be happy & to fight for, they seem nothing.

For me,

You are the reason why.

Why I can be much stronger & more patient.

Why I can put a big smile on my face.

Why I can be a better person each day.

Why I can stand still until today, even life is cruel.

After what we've been through, you know, He's testing me.

No one can help me.

Cause this is my battlefield.

I am my own hero.

But still..

without Him, I'm nothing.

Without Him, I can't beat the enemies I face.

I can't beat those evils that hurt my heart & mind.

And without you, I'll never know how much my ability to fight for all of this.

The ups & downs.

I'm very grateful for you.

I'm very grateful that He has given you for me.

I'm very grateful for all the things you've done to me.

From the smallest one till the most powerful one.

You give me strength.

You know, I miss you.

And that's the thing I hate the most.

The inability to meet with each other.

And all you can do is saying those words.

And doing nothing, except holding on that feeling.

2011-05-28T00:54:00.003+07:00

"Once YOU make me happy,

I feel like I'm ready to fight for the war in my life."

You know this is for you, dearest.

Meet you again soon with lots of hugs & a big smile on my face.

Goodnight. x

Thank you

2011-05-28T00:47:00.004+07:00

You make me happy. Beyond happy.

You know.

Just because of those sweet words that you've said.

Our last conversation about everything, all night long.

No matter how silly they were.

I'm happy.

I learn from my mistakes.

I'm on my way to be a better person.

I'll prove it to you.

Cause you are the reason for all.

Kalau Nggak Ada Kamu..

2011-05-21T21:58:00.007+07:00

Kalau nggak ada kamu, mungkin aku nggak akan belajar menggambar yang lebih baik.

Kalau nggak ada kamu, mungkin aku nggak akan ketawa selepas itu.

Kalau nggak ada kamu, mungkin aku nggak akan jadi yang lebih baik.

Kalau nggak ada kamu, mungkin aku nggak akan mau belajar masak.

Kalau nggak ada kamu, mungkin aku nggak akan bisa dekat sama Yang Di Atas lagi.

Kalau nggak ada kamu, mungkin aku nggak akan punya seseorang untuk men-support aku.

Kalau nggak ada kamu, mungkin aku akan struggle dengan tugas-tugasku.

Kalau nggak ada kamu, mungkin aku akan sendirian disana.

Kalau nggak ada kamu, mungkin aku akan jadi hedonisme.

Kalau nggak ada kamu, mungkin aku akan begitu-begitu saja.

Kalau nggak ada kamu, mungkin tulisan ini nggak akan pernah ada.

Kalau nggak ada kamu, mungkin perasaan ini nggak akan pernah ada...

Tonight.

2011-05-21T00:52:00.002+07:00

"A gift from you is a bonus. Cause you are the main point of this relation.

I know, you can. I know, we can."

Word.

2011-05-20T02:40:00.002+07:00

Achtung!

2011-05-16T16:20:00.001+07:00

Been posting about LOVE so far.

Sorry guys, I fall in love too hard.

Hope you don't mind while reading it.

#kthxbye

NGGAK ADIL, YA?

2011-05-15T22:15:00.003+07:00

Kadang kita nggak perlu kok untuk memberitahu pengorbanan

yang udah kita lakuin buat seseorang.

Emang rasanya pasti geregetan banget deh.

It's like:

"Woy, gue udah ngelakuin yang terbaik kali buat elu, kurang puas?"

atau...

"Kenapa sih lu cuma bisa mandang dia doang yang jelas-jelas dia tuh ga pernah ngorbanin sesuatu buat lu, peduli aja nggak. Gue nih disini nih, khusus buat lu! LIAT DONG!"

That's exactly what I feel so far.

Feeling like it's unfair.

Life is unfair, sometimes.

Contohnya.

Ada orang yang ga usah ngelakuin apa-apa, dia bisa digila-gilai oleh banyak orang.

Sedangkan posisi lu, yang udah ngorbanin segala macem waktu, duit, air mata, pelajaran/pekerjaan, atau mungkin pikiran lu, cuma buat nih satu orang.

Buat bikin dia sadar, kalo sebenernya lu adalah orang yang sedang berjuang untuk dia.

Entah berjuang biar dia bisa jadi yang lebih baik.

Entah berjuang biar dia bisa jadi orang sukses.

Atau, berjuang agar dia bisa move on dan ngeliat lu.

Cuma lu.

Tapi ternyata,

Waktu, pikiran dan air mata itu

Sia-sia...

Dia nggak pernah nyadar

Dia nggak pernah tau

Dia nggak akan pernah mau tau

Yang di otak lu sekarang cuma satu

"NGGAK ADIL"

Tapi, sejauh ini, menurut pengalaman, orang yang tau pengorbanan kita dari orang lain itu, rasanyaaa.......

Lebih WOW

Kayak dapet surprise.

Emang surprise sih, namanya juga baru tau kan.

Ga ngerti harus bilang apa,

yang lu bisa lakuin pertama kali cuma kaget.

Lalu reaksi kedua, ketawa atau nangis.

Dan ketiga, lu pasti akan menyadari kalau ternyata ada orang yang sayang sama lu

lebih dari yang lu kira.

Memang, feeling ga bisa bohong.

Kadang lu merasa ga tega atau mungkin kasihan

sama orang yang udah relain 'sesuatu'nya itu buat lu.

Tapi cobalah untuk sadar, kalau orang ini adalah "sesuatu" yang mungkin

nantinya mereka bisa merubah hidup lu.

Mungkin ini berlaku untuk orang yang belum bisa intim hubungannya.

Bukan intim yang jorok, ya.

Intim dalam artian deket atau punya hubungan spesial.

Tapi, buat yang udah punya suatu hubungan yang deket & kayaknya nih lagi dingin-dinginnya,

(ceilee) coba deh pikirin lagi.

Apa sih yang udah orang ini korbankan untuk lu.

Karena ga mungkin mereka atau lu, memilih orang ini untuk lu jadikan seseorang yang deket

kalo bukan untuk lu liat pengorbanan mereka.

Gue yakin deh, apalagi buat yang udah pacaran gitu kan.

Lu liat lah, kenapa dia bisa jadi cewe atau cowo lu,

sebagian besar itu pasti karena pengorbanan mereka buat lu

sampai akhirnya kalian bisa seperti kalian yang sekarang ini.

Buat yang masih dalam tahap PDKT,

tetap semangat dan tetap berdoa

Gue yakin, pengorbanan kita ga akan sia-sia.

Karena pada akhirnya, lu akan belajar dari situ sesuatu yang ga pernah lu sangka.

Belajar sesuatu yang ga pernah lu harapkan akan jadi seperti itu.

Ga usah mikirin yang udah-udah,

yang udah lewat biarlah lewat.

Ga usah liat kebelakang

karena kalian punya sesuatu yang indah di depan

Karena menurut agama gue,

Bapa kita telah menyiapkan sesuatu yang baik untuk masa depan kita.

Dan iblis lah yang membuatmu terperangkap dalam bayang masa lalu.

Dan gue harap, kalian ngerti dari maksud artikel gue kali ini.

Karena gue saat ini sedang merasa kayak gitu.

Terutama buat orang yang deket sama gue.

Gue sayang sama lu.

May 15, 2011

2011-05-15T11:48:00.004+07:00

Today is my 8months anniversary with my little monkey, Alexander Averil.

Yay!

Just sent a few words through BBM for him.

Time flies so fast, can't believe that I've been through this far.

Hope we can go further than this.

I lob yu!

2.37AM GMT+8

2011-05-08T01:30:00.006+07:00

Thank you for making me happy.

Thank you for inspiring me.

Thank you for the tears that you made it fall.

The one that fall cause of the laughter and stupid jokes that you made,

or even the one that fall because of our hardest time.

I know it might be hard for you to fight your feeling.

The feeling that you thought has gone.

The feeling that you thought you won't ever feel anymore.

I do.

But I can fight it for you.

I tried so hard & I made it.

And I'm sure that you can do it too.

It's our relation, right.

It's about how 2 person can make it. Not less, not more.

Through the times that we've been through.

I know it isn't that easy.

Out stories are just too precious.

And I'm still happy with what we are now

We just have to fix it a bit :)

P.S.: Look so cute while we're Skype-ing. Je t'aime!

You for Million Times.

2011-03-08T23:16:00.005+07:00

Seeing people with their other half is sometimes making me jealous.

How they could spend their time, fall deep into a love pool & never want to go back to the surface, ignoring things, have shoulder to cry on.

I wish I were in that position...

Last year, God has a plan for me that could change my life until the day I wrote this post & I'm still counting on it.

I met with this guy. A guy that I've never thought that would be my boy. But I couldn't believe that when we have this relationship,

I realized about one thing that...

he is the guy that I always ask for in my pray.

I'm not asking about his name or his appearance.

But I asked for what's inside him.

I like the way he treats me.

The way he look at me and smile even I know maybe I'm not the prettiest girl that he ever met.

The way he hug me and give me a soft back rub to calm me down.

The way he hold my hands in front of everyone.

When I stare at him & he doesn't know about it.

Laughed at his jokes & he wasn't get annoyed by it, even laugh harder than I did.

This things are getting crazy you know. Even the small & unimportant thing can make me love him more.

More, more and more. Day by day.

Been in a relationship is great. Beyond great.

PS: Boy, if you read this, you should know that there's nothing you have to worry about between us. We can make it. Thank you for always being there for me.

I miss you.

Jack & Sally

2011-02-25T01:22:00.002+07:00

Present you my video project for Video Production.

Enjoy. x

What I Love About Today

2011-02-16T16:53:00.003+07:00

What I got until today.

2011-01-13T23:00:00.004+07:00

In your arms, I'm warm.

In your hugs, I'm save.

I just love you.

More than anyone else can do.

You're my God

2010-12-15T23:56:00.006+07:00

You want to know how great the love of God is?

Imagine this.

I believe that you have someone that you love or ever been.

Let's make it too much.

Whole-hearted.

You care a lot about this people. You can do anything as long as you are with them.

Whenever they hurt you, you still can forgive them. Whatever their mistakes are.

Because of what,

because you love them.

Yes, that's the point.

God's love is nearer with that illustration, only bigger.

Biggest, greatest, kindest.

That's why He still forgive us from all those sins that we did, intentionally or not.

Only sometimes, human don't want to admit it in front of Him.

And the most important thing you should know,

His love is eternal.

You know, sometimes, maybe you can't forgive some of people's mistakes that you feel it's too huge to be forgotten and forgiven.

But God will never do that.

Ever.

And what makes me wrote this post,

it's because lately, I feel the power of His touch, again, after few years I've been so far away from Him.

Now, I'm back on His track.

Feel the power of prayer.

Feel how matched His daily words that I read each day according to my life.

Feel how worth and perfect my life is.

Feel touched and blessed by His kindness.

Feel You, God..

God, I love you.

Maybe this sentences is too common, but my heart mean it.

Quotes of the month.

2010-12-13T00:16:00.005+07:00

"No one is perfect but you are the best." -Alexander Averil

Home?

2010-12-03T21:09:00.006+07:00

I said this is home.

My own home.

But, I don't feel it, anymore.

Even my own home is not a warm and comfort place to stay in.

Where should I go?

Milo Perdana.

2010-11-27T00:22:00.004+07:00

"Bikinin aku Milo dong!" ujarnya di suatu malam.

"Duh, aku ga pernah bikin susu buat orang. Ga yakin enak loh," sahutku ragu.

"Wah, jadi aku orang pertama yang kamu bikinin Milo dong!"

"Kamu yakin?"

"Udah, bikinin aja" katanya sambil matanya tetap melekat di layar laptop.

Mulai menuju dapur. Milo pun kucari, ketemu. Gulanya? Nah itu dia, di sebelah meja dekat lemari es.

Kuambil gelas kuning bercorak bunga warna warni yang ukurannya lumayan besar.

Lalu, kumasukkan serbuk-serbuk coklat itu.

Ragu. Soalnya aku ga pernah bikinin susu buat orang. Bikin teh manis aja suka ga enak. Enakan teh bikinan si Mama.

"Gulanya berapa sendok ya?" ujarku kecil.

"Hah? Apa?" balasnya.

"Eh, nggak kok. Cuma bingung aja, takut kemanisan."

Milo produksi Singapore itu nggak seenak Milo produksi Indonesia. Gak manis.

"Hmm.. Dua setengah sendok aja deh," kataku dalam hati sambil mengambil gula dari sendok teh.

Tuang air panasnya, tambahin air biasa sedikit.

Aduk..

Duh..

"Nih, cobain. Perdana! Haha.."

"Wih, asik.."

glekkkk.. glekkkk..

Diam, kami berdua.

Yang satu minum Milo perdana, yang satu lagi ngeliatin, penasaran bakal direspon apa.

Eh, dia senyum.

"Enak."

"Hah?! Serius kamu?"

"Iya, enak."

"Bikinnya pake hati sih. Hehe"

"Lain kali, bikinnya pake hati lagi yah!"

"Iya, aku sayang kamu."

Ups, yang terakhir dia nggak tau kok. Dalam hati. :)

You know it's you.

2010-11-25T01:01:00.012+07:00

I miss staring silently at you.

I miss making you a cup of hot chocolate and seeing your smile after you finished drink it up.

I miss eating cereal with you.

I miss walking along the same road together.

I miss nyubitin your jelly cheek.

I miss your belepotan mouth while you're eating like a little kid.

I miss playing with your hair.

I miss your hug. The best. The warmest.

I miss your eyes.

I miss you, love.

Believe me, I'm thinking about all of those while I'm typing this.

Darn, you're such a genius to make my heart beats double time faster.

...God, thank you so much for him.

The Dream Catcher.

2010-10-07T20:36:00.003+07:00

My favorite thing ever.

You know, I love this thing so much.

Like what I do to you too, A.

WHITE FRAME

2010-10-07T00:45:00.004+07:00

My boyfie, Alexander Averil, is attending an Art Event in Singapore.

The event called "WHITE FRAME"

For you guys around Singapore

please come & join

Oct 2 - 3 MAAD Market at Red Dot Design Museum, Singapore
Oct 9 - 10 The National Art Gallery, Singapore

God bless you.

2010-10-06T10:10:00.004+07:00

You.

2010-09-28T00:06:00.003+07:00

Reach me.

And I'll be fine.

Words Can('t) Bring Me Down

2010-09-23T23:24:00.007+07:00

Living in Singapore makes me changed some points of my view in this life.

A view that..

..there's a bunch of people who don't like you to be success.

..not all people can be nice to you, just like the way you treat them.

..there are so many stalkers & haters that always ready to break you down, they called enemy.

..new friend doesn't always that good.

..there's someone or even more, don't like when you got your happiness & like it's bother them, even there's nothing wrong about it.

Because life doesn't always goes in your own rule.

Because life doesn't always goes well.

Because life's rolling.

It has its own circumstances.

I believe that whenever I'm breaking down,

there will be a day that I lifted high.

The most important thing that happened in me is that now,

I don't really care about what others say to me as it doesn't loss them.

As I found happiness in my life by doing what i believe.

I used to care for every single things that I've done.

But now,

I don't really care about your words, dear.

Maybe words can bring me down for sometimes,

but it doesn't mean I can't go through it.

Everything's gonna be good in its time.

Thanks. xx

2010-09-19T22:18:00.002+07:00

Under the sun.

In the middle of the breathtaking view.

I'm with you.

And I will be.

For the next day & the day after.

Life ain't that easy.

2010-09-19T21:49:00.007+07:00

As time passes by.

My mind changed.

God gives me more than I expect.

FIRST EXPERIMENT

2010-05-20T22:01:00.004+07:00

Singapore
12/05/2010

MORE, I AM//

2010-05-20T12:53:00.008+07:00

▲ I never cry at any movies. I've ever tried to watch the saddest film ever, well my heart touched and those tears ALMOST fall, but it looks like my tears are too shy to fall. Hmm.. Am I a heartless people or what?
▲ I'm bad at drawing, but thank God someone's found Adobe.
▲ I'd rather to stay back than had to get into some 'fights'.
▲ I HATE COPY-KITTY. well, who doesn't? I'm getting tired of them.
▲ The smell of fresh baked cookies, cake, or bread are some of the greatest smell I've ever sniffed.
▲ Wasting my time in my own bedroom.
▲ Watching TV less than two hour. Yes, LESS.
▲ I can 'see' what you can't.
▲ Kissing scene is cute. No, I'm not perv. But I think, a movie without romantic scene is like a pretty flower without scent.
▲ Rub some cajuput oil on my tummy before going to sleep, the best.
▲ Smell of a new laundry blanket.
▲ Haha I mention too many scent. Well, I like to sniff a good scent. Yeah, one of the good things.▲ I don't like to read book, but I love to write. And someday, I wish I will be an author of a book. A best-seller one.
▲ But I love to read magazine. I have a huge obsession about it. Wish someday I could become a part of it.
▲ I like to be different. That's why I don't really like people with a group of friends, they just like.. the same.. Same way in dressing, same way in wearing make-up, same way in their accent. Blah.
▲ I adore someone from their pics, followed by their life.
▲ I'm proud to know Jesus as my Savior. No one can replace Him.
▲ Thinking about everything before going to sleep.
▲ I can handle my emotion even a big ego person driving me crazeehhh.
▲ I got 2 people, 2 web, and 2 story-life as my inspiration.
▲ I love staring at sky, when everyone never or just realized something beautiful up there, I knew it first.
▲ I know I like you, but I don't understand what do you want.
▲ Financial is the last priority to think about when I decided to loving someone, yea, my parents still can give me money.
▲ I'm not THAT pretty, just a bit photogenic.
▲ Having a great childhood, my childhood friends are the best.
▲ Staring at good pictures just give me feeling to snap a same one, or a better one.
▲ Blessed with curly and messed-up hair when other girls blessed with silky and straight hair.
▲ Text better than speak.
▲ I don't care with boys body shape. Fat is fine, but I don't like if he's too huge.
▲ Don't really like kids. But I have 2 favos, first is my auntie's newborn baby named Shalom and second is my friend's brother named Vincent. Oh gosh, they're uber uber cute!
▲ I love reading this post all over again. HAHAHA.

I AM//

2010-05-19T20:30:00.011+07:00

♥ I love the feeling when you know that someone is missing you, so much.
♥ I love to write about some cute words, like quotes. I don't know, this random thoughts keep running in my mind. That's why, I always flood My Twitter Timeline with so many quotes that I made it myself.
♥ I love when I got a hug, a tight one would be nice :)
♥ More followers
♥ Get comfy easily in someone's else bedroom.
♥ Having a psycho obsession about Paris.
♥ Easily like someone, but hard to fall in love.
♥ Thank you WWW, kamu sangat mengasah kemampuan design ku :)
♥ I'll grab anything about vintage.
♥ I don't really like branded stuff, but Chanel is absolutely gorgeous in my eyes.
♥ I like long-lasting stuffs.
♥ For me, camera is a lust.
♥ I'm loyal. This is true.
♥ Don't like to be a center of attention, but my job makes me do. Doh!
♥ Love inspires me.
♥ When someone's giving a very nice feedback about my work, they will make my day.
♥ Sniff someone with a nice smell, it's heaven.
♥ I know how jerk boys are.
♥ Make up makes me feel pretty, but I don't like to wear 'em. Well, for now.
♥ Receiving a hug from the back, the greatest feeling ever.
♥ I love saying out loud my feelings, never got shy with it.
♥ Just say straight to my face if you miss me, I'd appreciated it fucking much.
♥ Plays the same songs, everyday without getting bored.
♥ I love the smell of rain.
♥ Never smoke.
♥ I have a lot, super lots, gazillion lots of dreams. Some of them had became reality. :)
♥ Talking about unimportant daily shits, hearing his voice, sending msgs, talking on MSN until clock shows it's already midnight. Sounds cheesy, but I enjoy everytime I do it.
♥ Wish I have a chance to meet you before I go.
♥ I'm a joker. A good one, perhaps? I'm good at making people going LOL
♥ Got many pimples in my face, I hate it for the most.
♥ I like people who dressing in a good way, they attract me.
♥ I can't attract people by my face or the way I dress, I attract them with my artworks.
♥ An evening walk
♥ Sightseeing & listening some good music from inside the car when I'm on my way to some place is just one of my pretty habit.
♥ I can't get enough for pretty pictures
♥ I love you reading every words that I wrote from the beginning until this part.

12 Hours Ago

2010-05-19T13:56:00.002+07:00

Please kindly understand with this condition.
Thanks loves :)

Hey three(awe)some

2010-05-18T16:30:00.003+07:00

♥

03-075-164-5 LULUS

2010-04-28T22:19:00.004+07:00

ASIK, LULUS!

hehe.. iya, saya udah lulus SMA :)
setelah ngelewatin masa-masa perjuangan yg super bikin badan dan mental cape, akhirnya saya skrg bisa melepas masa memakai seragam abu-abu putih. Seneng deh rasanya, tapi banyakan sedihnya. Harus pisah sama temen-temen. Senengnya ya itu, lulus, ga usah pake seragam lagi, ga usah pusing sama mata pelajaran IPS yg super menyebalkan itu. hahaha :D

Yahhh.. Mesti pisah sama temen-temen deh, ga bisa kyk waku SD & SMP dulu, masih bisa lanjutin ke sekolah yang sama. Jadi temennya ya itu-itu lagi.
Sekarang saya udah resmi melepas status siswi dan diganti menjadi mahasiswi. Wihiy, skrg ngmgnya kampus coy bukan sekolah lagi. HAHAHA
Ya, excited jg loh mau masuk kuliah, apalagi jurusannya saya suka banget :)
Nah, sedih lagi deh, soalnya mesti pisah keluar negeri. Yah, jarak Jakarta-Singapore emang deket. Tapi ya, katanya kalo udah kuliah kan pada sibuk sama urusan masing-masing. Jadi ya menurut saya, mau jaraknya sedeket apapun juga kayaknya ga akan ngaruh deh, bakal tetep berasa jauh.
Haha lucu aja gitu, biasanya saya kesana buat liburan, skrg buat tempat belajar. Tinggal ga sama orang tua, apa-apa harus ngurus sendiri, harus nyari temen baru lagi, nyesuaiin sama makanan lokal, nyesuaiin diri sama lingkungan sana.

Dan sekarang saya ga mau mikirin itu dulu deh, mau tenang nih, nikmatin liburan. Udah capek dari bulan Januari mental sama fisik di forsir terus buat kerja. Hehehe
Banyak rencana nih buat liburan, tapi kok nguras kantong banget yah? Hmm...

Gah!

2010-04-10T10:34:00.005+07:00

So, today is Saturday.
It's like I'm having no life without my cellphone, cause it was broken and I gave it to the repairman, it takes 4 days to be done. Blah
But thankfully, I still get the internet connection ;)

This pump up my mood

Twitter Over Capacity, made from lego.

Yes, they are eggs.

♥♥♥

Approvement Letter from NAFA

2010-04-09T22:44:00.007+07:00

oops, sorry for the blurry words, it's for privacy

Hey Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts, I'm coming this July ;)

super yay! cause my April Wish was coming trueeeeee

Read That

2010-04-01T21:56:00.001+07:00

well, maybe some of you might ever felt this way.

The must unbelievable things that happened in March:

2010-03-30T14:46:00.005+07:00

1. Turning 18 ;)
I know, I'm growing up, older. So fast. I can't believe it's been a year since my last 17. And in just a few weeks after that, I realized that I have so much responsibility to take. I have so many problems to face. I have so many things to do out there. But I think, I'm growing up too fast than my real age. You know, I mean, growing up too mature that makes me not too fragile to facing this life. And that's good. I really enjoy being it than to have to being a childish one.

2. Got my college test
This one, gah, i don't know how nervous I am on that time. Yea, me wanna go to NAFA (Nanyang Academy of Fine Art). It's my priority college. I've been practicing before I took the test. The test is about English and Collage. Do you know what collage is? A collage may include newspaper clippings, ribbons, bits of colored or hand-made papers, portions of other artwork, photographs, a piece of moss or even a dead mole and other found objects, glued to a piece of paper or canvas. (via Wikipedia)
So the simple meaning is you cut out some picture in the magazine, then you make it into a new concept of your imagination. And this is the result of my Collage Test :) The theme was Strawberry Tree.

3. Got my national exam
Yes, I'm the 12 grade High School student, had my final national exam on that day. It's hard. Really. I mean, I've been preparing it since January, and I don't expected it will be that hard. Geography, Sociology. Oh wow. But I hope the result is going to be good enough to pass. :)

3. I cut my hair, spontaneously

Oh yes, it's medium :)

Don't Be Silly

2010-01-06T14:32:00.006+07:00

It's nice to back for blog. After taking a long holiday for Christmas and New Year. I got a trip to Jogjakarta and my grandparents' house. It's quite exciting in Jogja, but not in my grandprents' house. I felt like I wanna get back to Jakarta. hahaha.. Yeah, it was so so so boring there. Stayed at home for about 2 days, can't go anywhere, no entertainment, nothing. Blah.

And now, I'm glad to back here, to Jakarta. Back with my daily routine. Gettin harder in school, cause yeah, final examination is almost there. So close. And that mean, it's so close for me to be graduated and say 'goodbye' to my friends. Does it sound sad? Of course. I hate that.

PS: I'm thinking about my college life without them. How it could be?

Evening Quotes

2009-11-08T23:16:00.005+07:00

Sometimes, enemies are good at seeking your great talent and what's good on you, that's why they hate you
-Yemima-

Where to Find?

2009-10-29T22:32:00.005+07:00

I miss you guys effin much!
It's hard to find people like you,
My inspiration, my story keeper
You've said when relationship can broke friendship
All of you are my classmates, chairmates
Sister sister sister
Hey, ayo dong ini sudah kelas 12 tau, sebentar lagi kita pisah

I wanna cry :,(

Road Was Empty, but They Still Here

2009-07-09T20:58:00.009+07:00

Senin, 6 Juli 2009. Liburan, diisi dengan pergi ke Bandung sama mereka. Meskipun harus bangun di pagi yang buta, tapi nggak apa-apa, kan mau senang2! :D
Asik juga loh ke bandung kali ini, soalnya gue pergi ke tempat-tempat yang blm pernah gue liat kalo lagi ke Bandung. Ya, paling cuma lewat aja sih. Pas lagi dijalan tol, niatnya di mobil mau tidur, tapi akhirnya nggak jadi, nggak bisa juga soalnya (akhirnya) pada berisik di mobil.
Nyampe di Bandung, langsung naik ke Lembang, mau minum susu sapi nya. Asik banget masih sepi gitu, jadinya nyampenya cepet. Abis sarapan disana, kita turun ke Bandung. Bandung super panas ya. Tapi asik sih jalan disana, panas-panas gitu juga masih ada hawa dinginnya.

Terus coba liat ke distro-distro Bandung, tapi malah nggak beli apa-apa. Masih bagusan distro di Jakarta. Mau belanja dimana, bingung, isinya FO semua, mau ke mal yang mirip Mangdu males juga, akhirnya kita foto-foto aja. Niatnya sih mau ngabisin memory card kamera (kira2 1000 foto lah), tapi karena ada suatu kejadian di kota tua nya yang bikin nggak enak, nggak jadi deh. Kita diliatin sama bapak-bapak pas lagi foto-foto (heran, kenapa cuma kita doang yang diliatin, padahal banyak banget org yg foto-foto, kalo di Jakarta tuh org yg foto-foto di kota tua) terus diikutin pula! Gue sih nggak tau pasti gimana orangnya, soalnya yg lain pada ribut sama tu bapak-bapak, gue lebih asik ngeliatin hasil foto dan pas gue cari-cari tu bapak, gue nggak liat orang yang dimaksud sama temen gue itu. So, yea, I don't careee, yang penting ada foto terus hasil fotonya bagus. Haha

What I wore that day

Endorse grey cropped shirt, unbranded black tank, ripped acid shorts, Doc Martens pink leather boots, black beanie, random bangles

Kapan-kapan lagi ah, jadiin 1 album di Bandung isinya 1000 foto :p

Woof ya, sisters and bro!

Back from Hong Kong :)

2009-07-02T23:21:00.003+07:00

I've been missing this city for 6 days and now i arrived back safely :)
Quick post :)
I think, i really need to take at least Chinese Language courses before i go to that city again, it's not easy to use English to communicate with the local people

Tagged :)

2009-06-26T22:26:00.004+07:00

I got tag by Florencia Owen Irena

01. Who was your last text from?
Carina :)

02. Where was your default picture taken?
my room

03. Your relationship status?
single

04. Have you ever lost a close friend?
yess :(

05. What is your current mood?
Happy and sad at the same time

06. How many siblings do you have?
one

07. Whats your brother(s)/sister(s) names?
Anastasia Jeanetta Natania

08. Where do you wish you were right now?
Paris or Hawaii

09. Have a crazy side?
of course

10. Ever had a near death experience?
yes i had

11. Something you do a lot?
online and online and online

12. Angry at anyone?
nooo

13. What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
i never meet him anymore, he's stab me

14. When was the last time you cried?
idk, it was a long time ago

15. Is there anyone you would do anything for?
yesss

16. What do you think about when you are falling asleep?
i wish my bed to be very comfy and anything that happened that day

17. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Carina

18. What is your favorite song?
so many

19. What are you doing right now?
answering these qs and chatting :)

20. Who do you trust right now?
Mostly God, and my sisters

21. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
Mangga Dua

22. Have you kissed someone in the past week?
yes, my sister

23. Who is your friend that lives closest to you?
Mang2 and Angel

24. Describe your life in one word?
unexpected, sometimes up, sometimes down, but I never regret it

25. Who are you thinking of right now?
hahaha.. let the answer of this question i keep it myself

26. What should you be doing right now?
sleep

27. What are you listening to?
Maps-Yeah Yeah Yeahs

28. Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
sis

29. Who was the last person who yelled at you?
mom

30. Do you act differently around the person you like?
sometimes yes

31. What is your natural hair colour?
black

32. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
Carina

33. Who was the last person to make you sad?
my mom and dad, doh

34. What do you hear?
music around me

35. Is your hair curly or straight?
naturally curly

36. Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?
i think yes

37. Do you have a best friend?
hell yeah!

38. Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?
nope

39. Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
yes

40. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
yes hahaha

41. Are you happy with life right now?
very

42. Are you currently jealous?
yes

43. What jewelry are you currently wearing?
none

44. What were you doing last Friday?
photoshoot at Clara's house

45. Have you ever had your heart broken?
yes but whatever! haha

46. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
i think yes :(

47. Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?
nope

48. What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
i forgot, i don't like spend my time to go to the doctor

49. How late did you stay up last night and why?
2AM, having fun with chatting :)

50. Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
nope

Stop the Ignorance

2009-06-21T16:45:00.007+07:00

Stop the Ignorance by CocoLovesChanel at deviantART

Talent : Clara Janice Robianto

Final Report, Finally

2009-06-12T10:31:00.005+07:00

Today, I received my final report. I'm really really nervous for the day, karena kemarin gue dapet telepon dari sekolah kalo orang tua gue harus dateng buat ngambil rapot, ada dua kemungkinan dari itu which are mungkin gue nggak naik kelas atau ada masalah yg harus diberitahu ke orang tua.

Darn, dari kemarin gue udah panik banget karena ditelponnya pagi hari dan jadilah hari itu gue agak stress dan mikirin masalah itu. Padahal gue yakin, nilai gue bagus-bagus semua selama ini (di kls 11 ini bikin gue jadi rajin belajar) dan gue juga nggak pernah bikin masalah yang sampe heboh sama guru.

Kasian ngeliat si papa sampe uring-uringan gara-gara mikirin hal ini. Dia bilang dia mikirin itu sampe pusing, nggak konsen sama kerjaannya. Makin menjadi lah kekuatiran gue itu. Apalagi dia selalu SMS sama telpon gue buat nanya-nanya info apa yg gue dapet dr temen-temen gue.

Andddddddd, today is come! Udah makin males aja pergi ke sekolah. Pas lagi siap-siap pake sepatu, tiba-tiba temen gue SMS "Yem, lu dpt rank 10 kok. Tnang aja, ga bkalan knp2" (2 org SMS dgn kalimat yg intinya sama)
Begitu baca, gue langsung naik ke kamar si papa, nggak peduli gue baru pake 1 sepatu. Langsung aja gue teriakin si papa yg lagi asik-asik tiduran. Gue bilang ke si papa sambil mesem-mesem nggak jelas, eh, si papa iseng "Temen kamu beneran nggak tuh ngomongnya? Jangan2 rank 10 dari bawah lagi. Hahaha.."

zzz

Gue pun langsung telpon temen gue itu buat memastikan dan kata dia emang bener karena tadi guru gue yang bacain. Tapi gue tetep bingung, kok gue dapet ranking 10 besar tp orang tua gue dipanggil. Ya sudah, bodo amat deh, yang penting gue udah jauhhhhhh lebih tenang. Hahaha

Dan bener aja, begitu gue nyampe sekolah, ketemu temen-temen sekolah di lapangan, mereka langsung bilang kalo gue ranking. Gue sih udah senyum-senyum aja, udah tenang tuh soalnya pasti nggak bakalan kenapa-napa kan. Lalu gue masuk kelas dan pas dapet giliran ternyata wali kelas gue cuma mau mengingatkan gue biar nggak bikin masalah kayak di semester 1 lalu. Ya elah, cuma karena gitu doang bikin gue sampe uring-uringan dari kemarin.

Meski dapet ranking 10, tapi gue udah seneng banget kok. Berhubung gue jarang banget banget bisa dapet 10 besar kyk gini. Apalagi si papa mama, senang sekaliii. Gue cukup bangga juga karena gue udah bisa buktiin ke nyokap kalo gue bisa masuk 10 besar, soalnya nyokap gue tuh bawel banget suka bilang gue males, nggak pernah mau belajar, nilainya jelek2 semua. Hey! Now you see ma! Puas banget (akhirnya) bisa ngebuktiin ke si papa mama kalo gue itu bisa kok jadi apa yg kayak mereka mau. Gue bangga juga udah bisa bikin mereka senang cuma karena hal kayak gini, akhirnyaaaaaa <3<3

And to all of you, who got received your final report, got rank, and successfully pass your grade, CONGRATS. I know how it feels :) And now, I can taste the great holiday. Have fun

One Night After One Year

2009-06-10T22:26:00.013+07:00

What else I can say? I love them, I really really love them. All of them.
All riot, all the backstabber-jokes-thingy, all friendship we've made, all the things we've made to the teacher, all the mocking talking to each other, amazing!
I never regret to get into this class, made a family and friends feeling with them, it's all gift!

Farewell, we've made in one night, isn't enough
Friendship, we've made in one year, will stand forever

All of this picts aren't enough to make story about our aww-some class in high school. I can't believe we won't be in the same class again, well maybe some of us will, but I won't be ALL of us. Gonna miss y'all folks!

Dedicated to all of SOCIAL effin 1 members :)
Smooches,
Me

Before I Leave

2009-05-04T22:58:00.003+07:00

Egois

2009-05-01T18:08:00.008+07:00

Ya, semoga semuanya bahagia dari awal sampai pada akhirnya. Meskipun kalian egois karena tak pernah mau rela melihatku mendapatkan sesuatu yg bisa membuatku tersenyum dan terenyuh, tapi aku disini selalu berdoa untuk kalian yang haus akan itu.
Aku tau itu hanya untuk kesenangan duniawi semata sehingga kalian bisa melupakan kejadian yang tak kalian inginkan dalam hidup. Kalian hanya ingin membuatku rindu akan masa itu,
sayang sekali aku tak pernah terlintas untuk merasakan ataupun mengulangnya kembali.
Yang terlintas hanyalah bagaimana caranya agar bisa memperbaikinya. Itu saja.
Tak peduli berapa kali kalian menyakiti hati ini dan aku pun juga tak pernah menghitungnya, lupakan, tanpa kalian aku baik-baik saja. Jauh lebih baik.

Aku sayang kalian,
tak tau sampai kapan

Aku..
Pergi dulu

Stomp on the Ground

2009-04-26T11:13:00.011+07:00

I found something beautiful when I'm on the way home. It's originally from God 's amazing hand made ;)

Mother nature is the greatest.

Cycling for 6 Hours

2009-04-23T16:08:00.015+07:00

Woohoo! Akhirnya hari ini kesampaian juga pergi cycling. Hari ini gue, Adrian a.k.a mang2, Eben sama Jeremy pergi cycling. Tadinya Angel, juga mau ikut tapi berhubung dia sakit jadi dia nggak bisa ikut. Jam 6 pagi kita kumpul dirumah mang2, tujuan pertama adalah rumah Angel! Kita mau manas-manasin dan ngejek-ngejek dia dulu karena dia nggak bisa ikut. hahaha :p

Hi, my name is Eben

Hi, my name is Adrian, you can call me mang2

Hi, my name is Jeremy

Hi, my name is Yemima

Setelah itu, rute kita selanjutnya adalah Monas. Wuih, pagi-pagi aja jalanannya udah padet sama kendaraan-kendaraan. Setelah nanjak 2-3 jembatan yang bikin super capek, lalu melewati jalan-jalan raya yang super hectic akhirnya kita sampai juga di Monas. I screamed woohoo! when we’ve made it. Norak emang, tapi emang puas banget bisa nyampe di Monas :)

kapan ya bisa setinggi Monas?

Eben's doing standing, wow!

Setelah puas main-main di Monas dan udah pada laper juga karena daritadi belum makan, akhirnya kita pergi makan bubur ayam di daerah Sarinah. Lanjutttt ke Gelora Bung Karno lewatin jalan raya yang (lagi-lagi) super hectic. FYI, Eben deh yang paling top, dia selalu jalan di barisan paling depan (karena dia yang tau jalan), dia yang nge-goes sepedanya paling cepet terus hampir ditabrak mobil lagi. Nekat banget hahaha

Yang paling asik tuh waktu mau jalan pulang dari Senayan-Puri. Asik banget deh, ngeliatin mobil-mobil pada bermacet-macet ria, kita tinggal nyalip sana-sini, bisa ngambil jalan pintas sama lawan arus juga. ;p

Akhirnya setelah hampir 6 jam menggoes sepeda, nyampe juga di Puri. Pas sampe di Puri, awalnya mau ke rumah gue ngambil gelas terus ke Starbucks, soalnya hari ini kalo bawa gelas sendiri, Starbucks bakalan ngasih diskon 50%. Tapi akhirnya nggak jadi, ya udah, pada balik ke rumah gue sekalian nganter gue pulang (aww, kalian manis bgt hahaha ;p) dan kita pergi ke taman kompleks rumah gue buat ngadem sambil main-main sepeda lagi. Abis itu semua pulang kerumah masing-masing deh

Dan pelajaran apa yang gue ambil dari perjalanan ini? Yah, gue melihat kehidupan Jakarta waktu pagi hari tuh ternyata udah sibuk ya. Selama ini kan gue ga notice tuh sama kehidupan orang-orang Jakarta di pagi hari, ya karena gue juga harus sekolah. Ternyata, banyak banget kegiatan yang mereka lakuin mulai dari Polisi yang harus ngatur lalu lintas, orang-orang kantoran yang sibuk ngejar bus dan desak-desakan di dalam Busway, ada pedagang asongan yang jual makanan dan minuman buat menuhin kebutuhan hidupnya juga, oma-opa yang jauh-jauh ke Monas buat olahraga pagi, dan masih banyak lagi.

Dan satu hal lagi mengenai Jakarta, orang-orang kan sering tuh bilang “coba Jakarta kayak luar negeri yah..”
Come on!! Selama gue naik sepeda dari Monas, Sudirman, sampai Senayan, gue ngerasa suasana kota Jakarta tuh udah kayak kota diluar negeri, tapi ya emang masih kotor dengan sampah yang dibuang sembarangan dimana-mana, polusi-polusi, fasilitas umum yang dicoret-coret, dan angkutan umum yang suka berhenti seenak jidatnya. Tapi nggak tau kenapa, suasana Jakarta di daerah Sudirman dan sekitarnya emang suasananya mirip kok sama luar negeri. Jadi, bangga dong tinggal di Jakarta yang nggak kalah pewe nya sama luar negeri! :)

Phew, thanks for reading fellas, hope you enjoy my archive for today!

See ya in the next story!

Take care

Tuesday Always Sounds Fun

2009-04-21T22:29:00.016+07:00

Today was fun, tiring, exciting and Jakarta was so hot!
I met my sisters. Everytime I meet them, they always cheer me up that's why I always have a great time with them.
Thank God, I found them as my sisters

Oh gosh, I ate like pig today and I can't ignore them cause they all my favorite! It's just a half from the total :p

Tick-tock, time's passing so slow today. I don't know why, I feel like I go through a long day. Met a lot of people, doing activity from 9 AM until this time, no rest, and I'm feeling sleepy right now.

Catch you people later!
Ciao